Here’s the shocking truth about creativity. Pursuing it can be the toughest decision any person can do. It could demand a strong will and resilience to make it work for you.
But truth be told. Only a few people can do big risks like that. Especially those who are already earning a decent monthly salary.
Though it could make you feel financially secure, you know that working for someone else isn’t something that gratifies the thirst for adventure.
And when you did, you probably heard the following statements from anyone you know:
Are you that stupid to leave their stable job with stable income for the sake of creating handmade crafts?
Why don’t you find a stable job instead of wasting time searching for nothing?
How does it feel when you hear them?
You feel embarrassed and sometimes guilty of doing it. In the worst cases, it hurts your confidence and sense of self in a lot of ways if you welcome it.
I guess anyone could never imagine how difficult it would be to decide to leave a career for the sake of pursuing creativity.
Do you feel the same? Have you felt the same as I did back then, too?
The post encompasses my humble beginnings to where I am now without suggesting you do the same.
Rather, it is for storytelling’s sake. Nothing else. Because you know what, it will be all up to you. You are the leader of your life. And my story will only show you just that.
I’m not saying quitting your job will always give you satisfaction. It’s up to you whether you find this interesting or not.
Finding a sense of adventure or purpose lies in your decision today.
Now that we’re all clear, let’s begin. Are you ready?
Let’s do this.
How Full-Time Teaching Resulted In Creative Burnout?
I was a full-time high school teacher. Yikes! Well, I was. It was supposed to be an admirable profession. Yet, I wasn’t prepared for the overwhelming expectations ahead of me.
I should be happy I can be a change-maker for my students and feel that burning passion creating a safe learning environment for them.
It was supposed to be like that. However, demotivation was consistent while doing my duties i.e. creating classroom materials, lesson plans, checking test papers, etc.
As a newly licensed teacher without zero working experience, I should feel delighted to find a teaching job and accept being underpaid as I was at an entry-level.
I should feel happy whenever I hear my students greeted me and showed their support and respect as their mentor.
For whatever reason, the “right” feeling didn’t register in me. Honestly, I felt guilty all the time. As much as I wanted, running away and find an escape to the nearby seashore during working hours was tempting.
I wasn’t sure if it was right for me to feel that way. I was so convinced that it’s something most Philippine teachers experienced and overcame over the years in teaching. At the time, I thought I could survive it all.
It was too difficult for a first-time employed teacher to handle many subjects without fully-adjusted to the workplace yet. It sucked, and I felt terribly frustrated.
Who was I, a new Education graduate like me, to complain or say something against it in fear of losing my job as if my life depended on it?
Often, I couldn’t help myself but sleep while my students do their classwork.
How My Employer Contributed To Burnout?
I love to teach. There’s no doubt about that.
I love listening to my students everything they want to tell me. I love reading their works, taking care of them, chatting with them whatever they want to tell me.
The problem was the school principal. His inconsiderate and cut-throat leadership contributed a lot to my stress.
On contrary to his religious image, his controlling nature led to a cut-throat leadership that contributed to my stress. As a result, it took a toll on my health.
Panic attacks, exhaustion, and symptoms of syncope were persistent. Albeit requests to reduce the workload, he continuously ignored the health of the teachers.
Instead, he added more stress by irresponsibly created accusations without plausible grounds. It was hell for me, and I couldn’t wait until my contract ended in March 2014.
You can’t imagine how excited I was to leave school, though my students insisted to stay.
How Did I realize The Power of Choosing Creativity?
It wasn’t easy. Although self-doubt overpowered me, I felt it was the right thing to do. Otherwise, I don’t know what could happen to me if I continue doing what I was doing.
How can I earn?
Where should I work?
How can I monetize my creativity?
Questions like these were constantly playing in my head. Meeting my college mates, who were fortunate to find the right job, wasn’t a pleasant thing to do. “Hey, why are you wasting time and intelligence for that sh*t?” they asked. “You could have enrolled in a Master’s Degree?”
To be perfectly honest, I didn’t have any idea where this headed. But I was so convinced that I could do something bigger than working 9 to 5.
I knew my capabilities could contribute to a bigger audience. And what they suggested will not help me to achieve that.
Besides, I already passed several national exams for licensures, though in the end, they were of no use.
Months passed, several online writing opportunities came. My resilience in challenging the norm – wasting time in school to finding jobs – changed people’s perspective.
It was definitely not something I could imagine possible despite the hurdles I had to face. But one thing is certain: I proved them wrong.
What’s The Shocking Truth About Creativity?
What I did isn’t everyone’s cup of tea. If you lack preparations for the possible consequences, if you are not brave enough to ignore people’s judgments of your decision, don’t do it.
You have the right to choose to stay in the status quo or not. No one can stop you from that, not even me.
Nonetheless, it’s your choice to create your adventure. That is if you’re willing to explore new possibilities by challenging the norm.
Creativity involves imagination and requires you to muster the courage to try an unproven path. It could be nerve-wracking at first. Yet, you know this is something you love doing over and over again.
I know how confusing that would be for you. You may feel trapped in between 2 choices:
- Stay on your job that limits your potentials.
- Break barriers that lead you to a happy and content life.
Again, it’s up to you. This is your life, my friend.
How about you?
Which of these would you like to do?
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