Maybe you already asked yourself about it. But you have unclear solutions to survive the agony. You may already have ideas to start being creative again. But it felt as though it is an impossible reach.
You may have probably heard it is normal for creative people like you to experience this dark time at some point in your life. Others call it “the dark side of creativity.”
Yet, nobody could imagine how frustrating it feels to you when you can’t do anything when it comes. Does it?
What is worse? It is when you rely on your creativity for work. As much as you want to quit, you never consider this as an option. Otherwise, you will lose your source of income.
At this point, you feel trapped, confused, and anxious. You’re desperate to get out and overcome it. The problem is you start losing assertiveness to do it of your will.
And it sucks. It truly sucks.
How Did I Monetize My Creativity Too Much?
Like you, I’m a very creative person with an ability to take those daydreams into realities. (Ironically, I found myself feeling trapped.)
Among the things I could do, I fell in love with writing, and my mother knew it when I was only 2 years old. At 12, I started writing diary entries, play scripts, and stories.
I love it so much that I have no qualms about monetizing it by writing for others online for 6 years and made a decent income from it.
My passion for writing extends to creating handmade notebooks in my Etsy shop. Since 2017, my hobby has turned into a side income.
I have sold many of my handmade notebooks locally (in the Philippines at the time) and internationally. It was a joyful moment for me.
Despite having no business know-how, I tried to do everything by myself. It was as if I was trying to prove something I don’t know.
As an introvert, marketing my products forced me to leave my comfort zone. At first, I felt the thrill of the big challenge. Without knowing it, the constant pressure and extroversion pushed me too far.
And it sucks. Because I already refused everyone’s help. How could I dare reach out to others after ignoring their aid many times?
Was it to tell everybody I am a superwoman?
Was it to show my family I can make an income without searching for jobs?
Or, was it to boost my ego by insisting on nonsensical independence?
Honestly, I don’t know. Maybe all?
How Did I End Up Having Creative Burnout?
Operating my Etsy shop by myself became a nightmare. I ignored the high levels of stress and refused to welcome help from other people.
Not only did I suffered from creative burnout, but I also failed to operate the whole shop.
What did I get?
- Burn out (persistent over the years)
- Demotivation to write (my passion)
- Deficits or losses (more expenses than my profit)
- Unemployment (neglected because of running my online shop)
- Loss of side income (psychologically)
It didn’t take long before I lost interest in running my online business and quit. It demotivated me to continue running my Etsy shop and lost the drive to create handmade notebooks.
I reached the point where I started to question my abilities, albeit the praises I receive from my works. My self-doubt increased to such an extent when it’s already debilitating, totally unproductive.
I became unemployed for several months, almost a year. Despite my persistence, I received nothing but rejections from all my pitches.
Then, I became desperate.
When it happened, I mustered my courage and chose to step back for a moment. For a few days, I stayed away from my desk, hoping I could get my creative spark again.
Temporarily, yes. It wasn’t long enough until I returned to old mental habits. I felt inadequate and incapable of doing great things, though I already did.
For that reason, I decided to build a platform for creative people who are in different stages of burnout; a platform that seeks to re-cultivate the lost spark by changing how we see ourselves as an artist.
Your first step to overcome creative burnout
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That will be all for now.